I just recently made the decision to close my creative business. I say “close” like it was a huge operation. Not really, it was just me, doing small creative online jobs for people and NPO’s. Nothing fancy, but I did enjoy it very much.
You reach a point where you have to admit when you’ve bitten off more than you can chew, and to just step back and look at where all your mental energy is going, then, make some changes.
I’ve been weary of posting anything “neurodiverse” lately as there have been a few instances this past 3 months that would usually have me banging away on my keyboard, but I decided to stay quiet and see what happened in the background. School related stuff, and seeing posts online that made me so angry, but I just heard a little voice saying “just let it be”.
So i let it be.
2025 has not gotten off to a great start, generally speaking. Our home is in chaos with alterations busy going on, we are living like little squashed sardines in the house anxiously waiting for plans to be approved so we can extend the house to make room for everyone. My eldest is in Grade 5 now, and that has proven to be a little more intense than I originally anticipated. Also my husband’s business has had a slew of bad reviews (in our 10 years of working) in the last 5 weeks, and it just feels like everything and everyone is against us.
I would just like to add that we are not paying for the renovations, my parents sold their home to renovate ours so they could live with us. Just before everyone thinks I’m rolling in money and complaining for nothing.
Ever feel like that?
It is, however, forcing us to take a long hard look at our businesses, our lifestyle and our systems that we use to run our lives and we are seeing holes all over the place. The level of re-evaluation is staggering at this point, so we are literally uncomfortable physically and internally all at the same time. Trusting God for breakthrough in our finances, our business and for our family as a whole is like watching the tide go in and out, our faith also goes in and out. It’s getting difficult to focus on one thing at a time, and I feel like I’m spinning in a vortex in my mind.
Some wonderful milestones, my eldest is doing so well at school, he faced this test season at the end of Term 1 like a champ and we are confident that he will be able to sustain this level aptitude and focus throughout the year, with a little help from us. This is also part of the reason why I had to say goodbye to my creative work, I need to focus on one job, office manager, and help my husband keep the business running. We aim to improve our service delivery and client communications, and this will require systems to be in place. Now we just wait for our new office to be completed so we can get on with it.
I am currently working in our tiny bedroom and he has a counter in the lounge. So yeah, not really working well for a “work environment”.
At least the new cats are integrating fairly well into the house and my dogs are getting used to them and learning that they are friends, not foes. We have two budgies and acquired a new fish tank with some goldfish (not my favourite), but the tank is nice.
So when my mental energy is back to a sustainable level, I will be delving into some neurodiversity topics and with winter approaching, I will most likely get a lot of writing done.
Have a wonderful week everyone, and see you soon.
Kim.
